Wednesday, October 22, 2014

Exhaustion with Oneself

It's not an exact emotion but more a feeling, the feeling of being just fed up. Fed up with everything that pertains to you. Starting this blog I didn't want it to be so sad, I go back and look at all my heartfelt post and I ask myself but why are you always talking so sad?
I now know why and it's taken me awhile to actually come to terms with it and admit it let alone accept it, actually I don't think I've accpeted it yet. But, there's time.

Anyways the exhaustion I feel towards myself has reached it's breaking point. I don't really know what the purpose of this post is anymore. I guess what I'm trying to say is this disgust at every action, every thought, and every movement is moreover taking control of me. it's debilitating seeing everything go downhill almost from an outer body experience, if that makes sense. I feel like I've been having tons of those lately, like I'm watching someone else live inside my body. I guess what I'm trying to say is I'm not okay, but I'm trying to not completely lose it. So, just be patient with me. I'm going to try to save this now sour rose bubble and make it sweet again. That obviouosly starts with working on myself a bit. Or a lot . . . I hope you are all doing much better.


See You Later.

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