Monday, September 22, 2014



I know what you must be thinking . . . nearly a month of absence and you think coming back with a simple playlist is going to get you off the hook? Think again sweet rose think again. I figure that sometimes the best way to explain how one is feeling is through music. And in this month of disappearance all I've been doing is feeling. Like John Green says, "That's the thing about pain, it demands to be felt." I knew if I decided on an emotion to peel away at I would be writing a novel, under the umbrella of emotions there is many, and I have been feeling more than many, so if it where one I would have to choose it would be . . . overwhelmed. I don't think I've mentioned this in a blog post before but I have anxiety/panic attacks, mild depression that comes and goes when it wants, and chronic worry. Most of the time I fight through it but I'm only human and there's only so  much I can do before it all catches up with me. This month of absence was all of that catching up with me. It is not an excuse I know that, but it sure is a weakening strength that I haven't quite conquered yet. Anyways, during this time I've been reading some books, listening to music, watching movies, sucking at school, and pretty much just hiding away. So be prepared to hear about it all in some way through here. If you want of course . . . no pressure. 

Okay, now for the playlist. Before I start listing off these songs I want you to keep in mind several things. Don't take some of these songs so literal and some do take so literal. Meaning, there's more to just the lyrics to explain what one is feeling, keep in mind the melodies, the instruments, the musicality, the harmonies, all those aspects have been painting a picture to my feelings and thoughts sometimes more than the words could ever do so. And in some songs the lyrics are exactly what my heart feels. This playlist is not entirely hopeless nor hopeful, it's kind of somewhere in between. And somewhere in between is where I'm most comfortable. 

This time I didn't put any description or opinion under each title for the simple fact that each one of these songs is no doubt going to make you feel something. And I want that something to be perceived in your own words and way. And also if you haven't noticed each one of these are also links that either lead to official videos or just lyrical videos on YouTube. 

Pain is a pesky part of being human, I’ve learned it feels like a stab wound to the heart, something I wish we could all do without, in our lives here. Pain is a sudden hurt that can’t be escaped. But then I have also learned that because of pain, I can feel the beauty, tenderness, and freedom of healing. Pain feels like a fast stab wound to the heart. But then healing feels like the wind against your face when you are spreading your wings and flying through the air! We may not have wings growing out of our backs, but healing is the closest thing that will give us that wind against our faces.
— C. JoyBell C.

Well my sweet reader I hope this helped in more ways than none. Enjoy the music, enjoy your own company. 

See you later.

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