Thursday, August 3, 2017

Hello Again

It has been a year since I last posted anything on here (and no I did not plan on that). Throughout the year my blog has lingered in the back of my mind, sort of stuck in limbo. I got caught up I could say, I lost sense of what I liked, what I found interesting . . . what made me, me. A lot has gone one and a lot has changed and I'm happy to say I am in a very good place in my life right now. It took a lot of work to get here and the work is not at all finished but I will say there has been more steps forward than steps taken back. 
I start my senior year at Northern Arizona University later this month.
October 2016 I bought a brand new car. 
On March 13th I began my health/weight loss journey. 
April 26, 2017 I celebrated 2 years with my love.
Present day I have lost 53 pounds in a matter of a little over 4 months. 

There have been many good changes. Changes that I have for so long wanted to embark on and I don't know . . . something in me just clicked and I started acting on them. I guess the biggest thing would be my journey on being a healthier me. Both physically and mentally. I think later on I will make a separate post in regards to my weight loss. But for now just know that I have gained some confidence, my self-esteem is no longer laying on the floor and my knowledge on what it takes to maintain a healthy body has grown (something I was so oblivious to before). 

The year I guess is almost over, but I think so far it has been so good. I guess I just wanted to pop in and say hello, I am still here. I am going to try to be as consistent as I can with this page . . . but I make no promises. Oh! Another thing, I have started a YouTube channel. For so long that was another thing on my "I want to do" list and I finally took the plunge. So feel free to head on over there to here me talk away in video form. :) Like I said, I am going to try to be as consistent as possible but I make no promises. 

"Do not fear to lose what needs to be lost."

See you later!

Tuesday, August 2, 2016

Vicious Waves

This summer has not been the easiest. It in fact has been quite stressful and filled with anxiety. But among your misfortune you must count your blessings. I am fortunate to have a family that holds me close and loves me as well as a boyfriend that does the same. I have fallen out of touch with a lot of my friends but they know who they are and I know who they are and no matter what time or what year it is that forever friendship will always be there. This past weekend I was fortunate enough to take a break from my summer school mentality and visit some family that live in California. In that time we were able to visit Huntington Beach. 

The waves were so rough they literally knocked me off my feet more than once. Among the vicious waves I caught a glimpse of a small sail boat far in the distance. How melancholic I thought . . .  but also how right it felt to see it. When I was younger I use to resonate with sail boats. I know it is a bit weird but hear me out. Sail boats can only really hold one person maybe three at most if it is a bigger one. Throughout my years of life . . . I always use to think about life as the sea and me as the little sail boat that could. No matter how rough the waves are and how dangerous the creatures of the deep are it was me and my little sail boat. It was up to me to fight the high waves. At the end of the day it is just you. You know yourself best and you know what is the best for you. You know what you can and cannot handle. My little sail boat is the significance of that thought of that mentality. Even though I personify myself as this small sail boat I know my will is bigger than the ocean. It is empowering to be able to fight through everything life throws at you but it is also respectful to seek help when you need it. In the end I try hard to keep my little sail boat from sinking or being consumed by the waves. I fight and succeed, fight and succeed. Fight and accept that sometimes there are leaks but there is nothing that can't be fixed unless you give up. 

The ending of my summer classes is coming up . . . tomorrow actually and through all the vicious waves there is now clarity. This nice moment of peaceful clarity. So when I saw that sail boat of in the distant sailing smoothly among the harsh waves I thought to myself . . .these hard times will pass and then I will look like that . . . I will feel like that. Peaceful and ready for what's to come. 


Friday, July 15, 2016

Ipsy June Glam Bag 2016

This months bag is pretty nice. I love love the bag it came in! Recently I have taken on quite the love for the holographic color. Here is a list of the items I got! 

Lip Liner in Maya - OFRA Cosmetics
tre'Stique Mini Highlighter in Maldives Luminescent
Luxie Rose Gold Small Angle Eye Brush 215
Meet Matt(e) Trimony Eyeshadow in Matt Kumar - The Balm Cosmetics
Delectable Lemon & Cream Nourishing hand cream by Cake Beauty 

I cannot wait to try everything I'm especially excited about the eyeshadow it is a beautiful deep burgundy color and the hand cream smells sooooooo good. 

What did you get in your ipsy bag? What are you most excited to try?

I hope you all are enjoying July, crazy to think we are well over half the year. 

Be kind to yourself and others always. x 

A Feeling Too Well Known

I've written things that come from the heart . . . but there are parts of my heart that hold things I have not yet written about. I think we all carry different worries upon our shoulders and walk with different monsters tracing our footsteps. Anxiety has always been my biggest monster among my monsters. Lately it has been walking ahead of me. The roles are suddenly reversed in that know it is me that is tracing in its footsteps. It is hard to escape it because it knows exactly where to step next, it knows me. It is one thing to fear your monsters and another to be at the point in which you are friends with them; casually greeting them as they walk through the door of your mind every day. 

Not every day is the same. Not every day is bad. I often shut myself out when it comes to talking about my monster because I feel like anxiety disorders are still thought of as a mystery. Like they can't be real and if they are then why? There must be a reason for why . . . I wish, I wish I could have a reason for it. I wish I could say I have anxiety because of this, that this made up thing was the sole reason and that was that. But I don't. I guess you could say school, work, and the combo of just life in general all make up for it but there is no one true reason. It is frustrating to the point of tears. Tears come and go when they please, anxiety attacks are the worst. Lately this has been me. It is like when you are drowning and you panic; panicking will only make it worse, in fact it is a certain death. I try to tell myself to not panic, to not give in, but in truth the feelings I experience scare me and I give in. Although this is me right now; I know that I cannot get worse. I guess once you have reached a certain low you are determined to never again revisit those conditions again. At least that is how I keep myself out of those dark places and those low lows. 

Not everyday is the same. Besides the obvious every day is a good day. I learn a lot about myself. I learn how to cope, I learn how think positive, I learn how to keep going. If it weren't for the people around me I would loose my mind. I think it is important to have a safe place from your monsters no matter what they are. Build an environment in which you are safe. Build it, nurture it, let people that help you in. Don't deny yourself the right to fix yourself . . . just because you find yourself in difficult circumstances that seem like a dead end doesn't mean there is no way out. Your mind is as vast and as endless as you allow it to be. I have learned a lot and I have yet a lot to learn and every day is a new opportunity for that. A new day is a new opportunity for a good day. 

By throwing all of this out into the world I feel lighter. I feel like all I've just said is no longer brewing inside. I hope this has helped in better ways than none. If you are feeling this way . . . just know there is no monster you cannot take one, yes they may have the upper hand at times but you will always hold the reins. 

"What matters most is how well you walk through the fire." 
- Charles Bukowski 

Sunday, July 3, 2016

June Favorites

Well it is the end of another month and like always I can't believe how fast time flies. I don't know about you guys but the weather here in Arizona has been deadly and frankly I cannot wait for fall. I hope you all have been having a wonderful summer nonetheless. Anyways here are my monthly favorites!

I guess we can start from left to right. . . Two of my favorite products that I have been using this month in combination with each other are the Benefit Dandelion blush and Hoola bronzer. The bronzer is matte and I have used it for quite some time now and recently hit pan *sad face, I am quite late on this but oh my gosh . . . it is the best. Oh also they are both mini versions, I like to buy minis to see if I like them and if so I go on to buy the full size version. The Dandelion blush is the softest lightest pink I have ever seen and honestly it is so cute and smells like the sweetest vintage flower.

As for the two brushes the blue one as you know I recently got in my June ipsy bag, when I said I had a good feeling about it I was definitely not wrong. It not only is it the perfect crease brush but in general a great all over brush. The next brush I have been using is for my eyebrows, I am incredibly picky when it comes to the brush I use on my eyebrows and in reality have been on the hunt for the perfect one. This one is by IT cosmetics, No. 217 Angled Liner/Brow, it is perfectly tapered and stiff for precise lines. My brows have never looked better.

The Hanalei lip treatment is also another item I got in one of my ipsy bags, my lips get a bit drier in the summer and this has really been a huge help in keeping them be moisturized and healthy, plus it also smells really good. 

I have been a huge fan of the Anastasia Beverly Hills Pomade for quite the time now and recently decided to try the Brow Powder Duo, I tried it on its own and wasn't completely sold on it . . . but I have been using it to set my brows once the pomade goes on first and it really has made all the difference to use both products. I also noticed they last longer and don't smear, even with the pomade alone if I brushed it every now and then it would smear and that is no longer the case! 

Last but not least my Bath and Body Works sanitizer in Fiji White Sands. The fragrance is so refreshing and pure. I can't explain it but it is really nice and relaxing. 

Oh, and this is the palette I've been diving into non-stop. I love the little message at the cover of it, it is very relevant and inspiring. Tarte has got to be one of my favorite brands of all the time. The formula of their eye shadows is so creamy and long lasting how can one not fall in love with everything they put out? My favorite shade has got to be rise & shine, it matches the color of my lid to a t and that makes it the perfect transition shade. Sometimes all I wear on my lid is rise & shine and it gives such an even and simple look. All of the shades are sheer yet build-able and the blush is such a nice pink mauve. This palette has been it for me this whole summer. 

Here is the a list of all the products and their links.

Benefit Dandelion Blush 
Benefit Hoola Bronzer
Royal & Langnickel Crease/Smudge Brush
IT Cosmetics No. 217 Angled Liner/Brow Brush
Hanalei Lip Treatment
Anastasia Beverly Hills Powder Duo
Bath and Body Works Anti-Bacterial Hand Gel - Fiji White Sands (I don't think they are selling the sanitizer anymore but here are more products in that fragrance).
Tarte Double Duty Beauty™ limited-edition eye & cheek palette - Classic Courage

Till next time! Stay cool and smile always. x 

Saturday, June 18, 2016

Get To Know Me Tag

Usually with tags another person well tags you into it, but I thought what the heck I will just tag myself. I realized being that I'm still a fairly new blogger (sort of) I haven't posted much about myself, I haven't opened up I guess is what I'm trying to say. Starting up a blog can be intimidating and well I held back more of the personal stuff till I felt I was at a good standing. So here I am! I thought the Get To Know Me Tag is a perfect way to start opening some of those doors!  

1. Are you named after someone?
Yes, I am named after my mom. To keep this short and sweet, my mom let my dad choose the name of their first baby (me) and well my dad is and always has been head over heels for my mom. What he did was write names on pieces of paper, put them in a baggie, shook them up, and had my mom draw out a name at the hospital. All of the papers had the name Rosa just different middle names. Kind of cute right?

2. Where were you born?
Sioux City, Iowa.

3. What is your favorite movie? 
That is hard to answer. I'm a total movie junkie, me and my siblings love having movie nights and love going to the movies. But . . . if I had to pick it would probably my favorite childhood movie . . Thumbelina. I use to watch it on repeat 24/7 when I was little and I still watch it every now and then now. It brings me a weird sense of comfort. :) 

4. Summer or Winter?
While I was born in Iowa, I moved to Phoenix, Arizona when I was five. I still vividly remember the cold. And well everyone knows Arizona is an inferno all on it's own. So my answer is neither. If I could live somewhere where it was never too hot or too cold that would be perfect. But in all honesty Arizona has my heart.

5. Do you have kids?
Not yet. 

6. Hobbies?
Hmm where do I start; I love to read and write (although I don't do it as much as I would want to), I love taking pictures, I'm no photographer just a person with an eye for a good shot. And well pretty much anything outdoors . . . hiking, off-roading, shooting, fishing, going out on the lake, I love it all! My boyfriend Billy is the one constantly taking me out on adventures and I couldn't be more thankful. Other than that does spending time with my family count as a hobby? I have quite a large family, so a moment with them is never boring and always full of laughter. 

7. Favorite book of all time?
Well . . . that's a very hard one. I have read many books and many books have left pieces of their stories in my heart. But . . . if I had to choose one it would be Tuesday's With Morrie by Mitch Albom. That is the book that has truly shaped me and helped through some really hard times. I always buy extra copies and give them away to people that I think need Morrie's words. If you haven't read it I truly recommend it!

8. Do you have any pets?
Yes! I have little pup named Daisy. Believe it or not she is almost 7 years old. Many people ask me what breed she is but as far as I know shes just a very very small Maltese. She loves to say hi to people, loves treats, but most of all loves to cuddle. She also thinks she is the queen of the house. 

9. Favorite holiday?
My favorite holiday is the Fourth of July. Otherwise known as independence day. I know it's really random but ever since I can remember my parents would take us to the park every year to watch the fireworks where my whole family would meet up and have this huge picnic. The park we have always gone to has water slides and live music so the vibe is very welcoming. 

10. Do you speak any other language? 
Yes, I speak Spanish also.

11. How many siblings do you have?
I have two siblings. I am the oldest, then comes my sister Estefani whom just graduated high school and then my brother Emiliano who is in 8th grade. 

12. What is your favorite store?
Target. I mean who doesn't love target. Also don't let me in an Ulta or Sephora . . . damage will be done. 

13. What is your favorite drink? 
Water is my main source of hydration. I try to stick to only water. It's been about two years now of no soda! I am also a lover of tea, natural juices, and the occasional coffee.

14. Favorite color?
I don't think my favorite color has a name . . . its a mix of blue and green but it's not turquoise but more like a dark teal. I usually just say blue because it's hard to explain as you can see. :) 

15. Are you married?
No, not yet. All in due time!

16. Have you ever been out of the country?
Sadly no . . . I would love to travel all over the world but traveling is so expensive. Well I mean I've been to Mexico to my parents home town. It's a second home so I don't consider that out of the country. Besides that I've only traveled within the United States . . . I've so far been to California, Washington D.C., New York, Iowa, New Mexico, and Arizona. Most of the time my family likes to road trip so I've been to other states just not really explored them or anything. If I did get the chance to be out of the country my top two places to go to is England and Greece. 

17. What is your favorite song at the moment?
Currently I'm loving the song Lost Boy by Ruth B. When I was younger I use to wish I could go to Neverland and not grow up. What kid didn't! 

18. How tall are you?
5'7 I'm somewhat tall I guess . . . It's an insecurity of mine, I love heels but refrain from wearing them because I feel like such a giraffe. But every now and then I'll get moments of confidence and put some on.

19. What is the last movie you saw?
The Conjuring 2. . . I'm . . . I still am trying to recuperate from it. haha

20. What quote do you live by?
I don't really live by one quote, being a book worm I have all these quotes for different occasions that just pop up in my head. The one quote that sticks out to me the most right now is "I always choose to love, even when people never really deserve it. At least my intention, my energy, and my love were never mediocre. Something like that can be misunderstood but is never wrong. I commend my heart for that, because no matter what: my love was and always will be real." - Feliciana Cacciapuoti

I think that is a good note to end on. Anyways I hope this was a good little insider, if you have any questions feel free to ask! And remember chin up beautiful. 

Tuesday, June 14, 2016

Ipsy June Glam Bag 2016

                                                                                                                                                   It's here! After about two months of trying out Ipsy I think it is time I start writing some reviews. I find it fun seeing what other people got in their glam bags and reading what they think of the products they received. So why not throw another review/first impression into the mix! 

I think this by far has been my favorite glam bag. I haven't gotten many but this is the first bag that has really excited me about all the goodies in it! The brush is from Royal & Langnickel and it is a crease/smudge brush. I love love the color of it and am really excited to blend my eye shadow with it. It looks promising! *crosses fingers. The little pink bottle you see in the middle is by Delectable and is described as an "everything balm" at first I was really confused on what that meant. The bottle says lips . . . then cuticles . . . then cheekbones and I'm like . . . what the heck where does it go then?? After looking it up I guess it literally does go everywhere. You can use it to nourish split ends or even brighten your dark eye circles. I already tried it on my lips . . . it feels awesome and smells even better. 

First of all . . . the colors to this blush and highlighter are definitely in my color palette. Both have a unique gold undertone that really pops and glows. Which I'm not use to going with more bold things but sometimes it's a must! 

The blush is by Elizabeth Mott the range is called Show Me Your Cheeks (p.s. that is genius and cute!) and it is in the shade Peach Pink. When swatching the product on my had I felt the formula to be nice and creamy and you definitely don't need much to show off your cheeks! The color is well a peachy pink with a gold sparkle. I am going to be wearing this on my cheeks tomorrow no doubt. Also can we talk about that highlighter . . . the picture isn't giving it justice but boy does it glow. It is by Jouer in the shade Tiare. It is a cream highlighter, which is nice for the summer if you want a more dewy finish. I'm excited to try these two together!

Last but not least . . . I think what is my favorite out of all the goodies . . . the Urban Decay Eye Shadow in Lounge. I have one sort of like it but it is a loose powder. I really have nothing much else to say but that this eye shadow gives me life. *throws hands up in the air. 

That is all for right now! I hope all of you are having a wonderful summer and are truly living to the fullest. I'm off to do some more homework and continue to obsess over these products. 

Live freely and remember to hug your loved ones. With so much tragedy in the world it is unjust how quickly they can be taken away from us. Love always wins. 

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